"Rocking Horse" is an unreleased song by Melanie Martinez. It was intended to be featured on her debut studio album, Cry Baby, however, it was later scrapped. This song has not been performed live or released to fans.

Snippets of the song began to surface on February 15th, 2021 and the full version was leaked on the same day.

Leak History

  • February 15th, 2021 - The full final mix instrumental is leaked.
  • February 15th, 2021 (later) - A watermarked snippet of the first mix is leaked.
  • February 15th, 2021 (later) - The first mix is leaked with 3 edited cuts.
  • February 15th, 2021 (later) - A snippet of the first mix's bridge is leaked without cuts.
  • February 15th, 2021 (later) - Full first mix is leaked in high quality without cuts.
  • May 10th, 2021 - The final mix of the song is leaked.

Theme

This song is from the perspective of a woman who has gotten an abortion and states it was a miscarriage. After hearing stories of couples getting divorced after abortions, she keeps her own a secret from her husband. Instead, she plays it off as if she had a miscarriage. The guilt of the situation haunts her and she cannot remove the thoughts of what her son would be like if she had given birth.

Official versions

  • Final mix — 4:02
    • Official instrumental — 4:02
  • First mix — 3:58

Cross-references

  • "I'm haunted even when you're never there" is a direct reference to "Haunted".
  • "I'm taunted by your teddy bear" is a direct reference to "Teddy Bear".

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I'm in the process of counting sheep
But they're all so bloody
My hushed little baby still makes a peep
There's a ghost in the nursery
I'm haunted even when you’re never there
And I'm taunted by your teddy bear
Like it's talking and it's asking me
Why you never came home

[Pre-Chorus]
I missed my shower
I miss your cradle
I miss your carriage
I miss carriage,
"I miscarriaged,
Mi-miscarriaged"
And you never came home

[Chorus]
Back and forth
Back and forth
Move back and forth
Like a rocking horse
That rocking horse
That your daddy bought you
That you never saw
Goes back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth
Move back and forth
Like a rocking horse
That rocking horse
That your daddy bought you
That you never saw
Goes back and forth

[Verse 2]
I'm in the process of apologies
There's a husband who doesn't know that I'm guilty
There's a hushed little secret inside of me
And a ghost in the nursery
Oh honey, you'll never see your son become a star
Or the money you spent on that box of cigars
And I'm sorry you never got to hand them out, out

[Pre-Chorus]
This is for all the horses
Never given a horseman
Never grew to be Porsches
This is for all divorces
That were caused by abortions
Babies having babies and babies having abortions

[Chorus]
Back and forth
Back and forth
Move back and forth
Like a rocking horse
That rocking horse
That your daddy bought you
That you never saw
Goes back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth
Move back and forth
Like a rocking horse
That rocking horse
That your daddy bought you
That you never saw
Goes back and forth

[Bridge]
Rocking horse
Rocking horse
Oooh
Back and forth
You never came home
Rocking horse
Rocking horse
Oooh
Back and forth
And you never came home

[Chorus]
Back and forth
Back and forth
Move back and forth
Like a rocking horse
That rocking horse
That your daddy bought you
That you never saw
Goes back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth
Move back and forth
Like a rocking horse
That rocking horse
That your daddy bought you
That you never saw
Goes back and forth

Trivia

  • This song samples "All the Places" by Pete Rock.
  • Sounds of a creaking rocking horse can be heard throughout the song.

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