"Numbers" is the fourth track by Melanie Martinez that is featured on her fourth extended play (EP), After School.

Theme

"Numbers is about feeling underpaid and overworked In a system that treats you like you’re disposable. (10 of wands Energy)"[2]

Cross-References

  • "My heart space and my cranium ..." may be a reference to Brain & Heart.

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Count up your portions, count up your checks
Feeding your fam while you’re comin' at my neck
When ya gonna freeze with the cruel dramatics?
I'm not inspired by your foolish practice
Butter your bullshit, set up your fence
I’m just the chicken givin' you the egg
Soon, you're gonna see that your breath was wasted
Don't speak too soon on your doubts you're making
A big deal out of a little thing
Why should I try to conform to formulated paths
When clearly all my instincts led to something more magical?

[Chorus]
Am I just a number 'cause it seems like that's your goal?
You push us past our limits just to watch decimals grow
I need a reason why I’m looked at like a joke
Until I prove you wrong like I’ve done time and time before and
All your idle teaching and your criticisms lack the potential to
Penetrate my solid golden path to decide what my future is
I'm my own clairvoyant there’s no controlling me
imagination on ascend

[Verse 2]
Take me to Venus, let me explode
I'm ready to pop like a volcano
Jump over me like you're playing hot lava
Emotions on one hundred thousand, who's gonna
Shake me like soda creme but of course
Use all your words to distract from the source of
Where all the growth on the paper happens
Leave me alone to my own concoction
Prickin’ all my fingertips to carve out many roads
Pushin' out the petals from the bud of what I know

[Chorus]
Am I just a number 'cause it seems like that's your goal?
You push us past our limits just to watch decimals grow
Oh, I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke
Until I prove you wrong like I've done time and time before and
All my intuition says is expansion comes first but
Not just by material i'm talkin' 'bout in here
My heart space and my cranium must be loved too, my dear
Don't push me to the edge until I'm useless and can't feel

[Bridge]
They replaced their search for knowledge
With the reach of many material gains
They lack the tenderness of the sensitive
Empathetic bodies cryin' from the pain
It's too late to grow their frame of mind, it seems that it's already made
No use in arguin' with someone who doesn't wanna priortize birthing
of creation
Am I just a number?
Am I just a number?
Am I just a number?
Am I just a number?

[Chorus]
Am I just a number 'cause it seems like that's your goal?
You push us past our limits just to watch our numbers grow
Oh, I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke
Until I prove you wrong like I've done time and time before and
all my intuition says is expansion comes first but
Not just by material i'm talkin' 'bout in here
My heart space and my cranium must be loved too, my dear
Don't push me to the edge until I'm useless and can't feel

Videos

Trivia

  • This is the longest song on After School.[3]
  • On January 20th, 2020, fans outside of the Campo Pequeno heard Melanie singing an unknown song. The song is now confirmed to be Numbers.[4]
  • The photo used to tease the release of "After School" and "The Bakery" music video, could be a reference to one of the lines in this song, as Melanie referenced both projects as eggs that were about to hatch, and she was sitting in a nest cherishing them, while surrounded by 2 chickens.[5]
  • Melanie's favorite part of the song goes from 2:36 to 4:39.[6]
    • The way she describes the song when she played it for people was “you gotta get through the hike to get to the waterfall, and in my mind, the waterfall starts at 2:36!".[7]
  • The official instrumental leaked on December 9th, 2020.

References

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Featured Tracks NotebookTest MeBrain & HeartNumbersGluedField TripThe Bakery
Cut Songs Copy Cat (ft. Tierra Whack)Fire Drill
Producers Blake SlatkinMelanie Martinez (exec.)Michael Keenan
Related K-12Can't wait Till I'm Out of K-12Merchandise
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