Now, I feel that it’s been VERY clear that I’ve been working up to this point, and my break was SO long, it’s obvious what I was/am thinking of. I’m going to leave the fandom, and I thought, as one of the people who’s still “active” and has been here for a little while, why don’t I end it off in a classy way? So, here’s a list why I’m leaving:
- I’m not caught up with all her stuff. I think it’s super important to, like, not miss out on the person that you likes work. Which is the opposite of what I’ve been doing.
2. - I don’t really know people now. I went through 2 versions of this fandom, but it’s always growing so much bigger as people keep coming in, and being fans of Melanie. As I’ve stated in past posts, Melanie has helped me in so many ways, but more importantly, mentally. She’s been a big part of my mental life, and I’m so glad people are also using her music as a getaway. An escape. But, the fact I haven’t been here for months makes it a little harder to meet these people, since I wasn’t there when they/you joined. I mean, almost NOBODY I know from here is still here.
3. My interests in other artists/musicals. - If you’ve read my profile, or you’ve met me, you know I’m a big theatre nerd, and I have a very wide music selection. I’ve been listening to so many other people/things, I haven’t really listened to Melanie, (other then After School). I’m super disappointed in myself for not listening to her more often, but I like other people too.
4. I’ve never felt like I’m a part of the group. - I love Melanie, and I love this community, but I’ve never felt truly a part of it. I mean, I’ve laughed, I’ve cried, I’ve gasped, I’ve smiled because of this fandom, and though I was here for a short while, I’ve made some memories here. Which is why you would most likely think, “oh wow! She probably has a big following here!” But, that isn’t the case. I’ve always known I wasn’t the most popular here. I’ve always tried to be the mama bear, but I can’t really be that kind of person if I haven’t made my mark. I feel as if I’ve tried everything, and maybe it’s because I’m a bit antisocial, or I didn’t have a public discord, but I’ve always been aware that I wouldn’t be the next Carlito, or Dakota, popularity-wise.
Anyways, that’s the list, and thank you for listening to my Ted Talk. Hello, and goodbye. I love you all dearly, and you’ve all been so nice to me. I know I’ve been super annoying over the past year, but you all are such amazing people. I’ll miss you all, but all of these things have been issues for me over the past few months. Now, if you DON’T know me, or you still want to connect with me, my accounts are going to be after the sincerely.
- Sincerely, Lydia/Alex
Pintrest: @SHOWMETHOSE_HANDS / rxndog1rlfr1end
Spotify: @𝔏𝔶𝔡𝔦𝔞_𝔇𝔢𝔢𝔱𝔷
Roblox: Lydiadeetz235
Discord: 𝔑𝔞𝔫𝔠𝔶 ℜ𝔢𝔞𝔤𝔞𝔫#3167
(Extra note: (if you see this, you’re amazing), I’ll miss you all. XOXO, Lydia)
